Dream

So I just woke up from my first dream about the baby, it started out I was in the hospital, I had her, and I tried to breastfeed right away. I kept having an awkward time holding her and trying to get her into the "tummy to tummy" position, and I also felt like there wasn't any milk coming out, but she was smiling for some reason. I then took her home and was still having trouble breastfeeding. I was just feeling like she must be starving!! She would only feed for a minute and I was so worried because I wasn't feeling this let down thing they talked about in my childbirth class. But she wasn't crying or upset at all. Then I kept swaddling her in really cute blankets and leaving her random places, like propped up on the very corner edge of the couch, on the floor, or on the bed surrounded by tons of pillows with my cat sniffing at her, and then going off and forgetting. Then she also kept turning into a doll when I would remember I had a baby, and go back to get her. It was frustrating me because I was crying and yelling "Wheres my REAL baby??" I kept thinking she was still at the hospital or something, I was going crazy, or being punished for leaving her like that. I also remember feeling like I hadn't even given birth, and forgot all about the delivery and labor part, although I know I had dreamed about it.

I was wondering when I was going to have one of these strange pregnancy dreams everyone was talking about... I guess dreams like that are common in pregnancy haha. It was very weird! I'm surprised I hadn't up until now. Maybe it was because I fell asleep reading the "You're Labor & Birth" book haha.